Greetings

So about a week ago Mr. Adkins posted the topic for this weeks post, name your top five anything . Well for the longest I could not come up with anything until I looked out my window on part of a city that ever sleeps and then it hit me. My top five would be the five places I love going to in NYC. I am only listing five but I will come back and list more in the future. So here we go.

1. Dallas BBQ on 23rd street in Chealse-  for one the place is huge u like other Dallas's and plus it is the location. I know it is being over run by the rich and jackass but that will still be my favorite place even though I get carded when I go.  
2. The Leather Man on Christopher street in the West Village what can I say about that place it is like toys are us for grown folk in to BDSM and Leather. I like going cause I usually end up helping a very sweet guy buy his first cock ring. Plus one of the employees Tyrone is a doll who keeps inviting me to fire island. So yeah I love the leather man 
3. McNaulty and Sons Fine tea and Coffee also on Christopher Street next door to the Leather Man how cool is that two of my favorite stores next to each other. What more could a girl ask for. They have wonderful selection of teas and coffees that I hate to say it rivals my Starbucks. If you ever come to the city yes you need to go there.
4. Boots and Saddles Gay bar also on Christopher street in the West Village, they have some wonderful drag shows and pretty cute go go boys. Even I as a straight female feel welcome and have a blast. Trust me my lot in life is to hit up every gay club in NYC and other parts and maybe write a book on it . 
5. St.Marks Place I love  it love it love it. Between the tattoo establishments, Asian restaurants, two brother pizza and St.Marks comics what is not to love . They have a great energy and the best time to go is in the evenings and let not for get to mention the bars. So entires ot so just fun to go sit and people watch cause you never know what is going to happen or what you are going to see. 

So there you have it my partial list of top five and yes there are move cause there is always something to do in NYC.

What would my theme song be

When Jeff gave us the topic of if you had a theme song what would it be. It took me forever but I think Elton John's "The Bitch is Back" .yes that is my song cause this here chick has a new out look on life and who ever does not like it can kiss my wide.... Well you know what I mean.

Suicide

As most of you know I am not a blogger but for some reason Mr.Jeff Adkins thinks I can do this. I understand this week is suicide prevention week and what this means to me. I have to admit I did try to take my own life once. It was after a very bad car accident after a month in the hospital I was finally able to come home well lets just say I was not in the right frame of mind.i was having a hard time revering things and having to lean on people for help. I was in a cast from the waits down I had my jaw wired shut so eating solid foods were out. I was at a low point of having to have some one feed me and clean me up. I was still on morphine drip and let's just say I knew what it would do . I figured out a way to bypass the timing and set it on a constant flow .. Needless to say I was smart but not that damn smart cause  my nurse came in and from what I was told she called Emergency services I was taken to the hospital. They had to force open my jaw insert a tube to get me to breathing on my own. When I was finally conscious lets just say I had a room full of folks wondering if I lost my ever loving mind . Wen I explained to them how humiliated I was for folks to see me like this and to have to depend on folks for every day care I could not deal with it and deal with the fact that I knew I could not teach again. So I figured I would end it and not be a burden to folks and society anymore. Well after everyone I had their say it took me a moment to realized that I do have a purpose and usefulness in life and that when things get bad and you feel that you have no end to find someone you trust and talk your fears away. In the end when life seems that it is not going to get better it does. You just have to decide to stick around and see the amazing outcome.